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”The simple fact is this: anything that does not draw us closer to God takes us away from him. We have no middle ground, no foggy area where we can sin a little without suffering spiritual decline. That is why we must repent and come to Christ daily on submissive knees so that we can prevent bonfires of testimony from being snuffed out by sin.” -Joseph B. Wirthlin (Moroni 7:16-17)
I joined an event on facebook(which you can find here) to read the Book of Mormon by the end of the year. It’s been a little tough- I’m already behind. But every time I sit down to read, I am so filled with joy.. It’s inexpressibly beautiful. This book is so incredible.
“And if ye shall believe in Christ ye will believe in these words, for they are the words of Christ, … and they teach all men that they should do good.” 2 Nephi 33:10
Reading this astounding book has already helped me so much. I learn every time I open its pages, I grow and feel and pour my heart into it. It does so much for me. I have no doubt as to the truth of its words.
I would like to give you a little challenge.. I want you to read this. Even just a little bit of it. If you don’t have a copy, you can get a free one here. You don’t have to read the whole thing- although I strongly urge you to. If you get confused, don’t get discouraged! There are parts that even I don’t understand. But I want you to take this book with an open heart, an open mind. I want you to read whatever you’re willing, as much as you can. And then-and this may be tough- I’d like you to ask the Lord if what you read was true. I’m not talking about some grand, soul-searching journey(even though I have nothing against that!), I’m just talking about a simple prayer. Just ask him. I want everyone to know the peace this book can bring you.
This challenge- though it may be daunting- is not as hard as you might think. I promise you, you will not regret it. So please, for you, just take a look. Give it a try. You don’t have to make any promises to turn a page.
So everyone knows I’m in love with Dave… Even Dave knows it. Lately we’ve made some decisions about our relationship that are going to take us to grand and beautiful places. I’m so excited for us. But as we were talking about these decisions, we talked about some other things, too.
Like the fact that he is terrified for marriage- which everyone also knows, including me. He’s simply not ready for something like that. And I’m okay with it, I understand. Yesterday he said something about how we would probably break up before he ever got married, in conjunction with a statement about how he didn’t “know if we will get married or what.” I take this as progress. I have to wonder, however, what he would say or think if he knew how strongly I feel that that is exactly where our relationship is headed. Maybe not soon, not for a while. But not only is that something I want, it’s something I feel I’m going to have. And I can’t wait for that.
Every day, possibly every moment, I feel we are making decisions and doing the things that are setting us straighter and farther on the paths to our futures. I could be wrong about our paths staying interconnected for eternity, but I don’t really feel I am. Either way, connected or not, we’re going the right way. We’re doing the right things to promise our salvation, our peace. I have never loved another the way that I love him, nor do I want to. He is so special, so sacred and wonderful. I thank God every day for the love He’s blessed us with, and for the opportunity to be with someone who, in all honesty, has saved me.
One day, when my beautiful daughter asks me who my first love was, I don’t want to pull out old photo albums. I don’t want to dig through a box of old letters, search the dusty recesses of my mind, tell fantastic and tragic tales of love gone awry. I want to point across the room at my husband and say to my little girl, “He’s right there.”